Heart surgery (French version)

Dream #1: Heart surgery

Share: Following my re-engagement in my job, I have to move to the commune where I work. So, I ask if it is right for the evolution of our souls (my husband, my daughter and me) to move in this town?

Dream: I am in a hospital. In this hospital they only do heart operations. I am in a room lying in a bed. Opposite me there is a man, also lying in a bed. For the night we are connected at the level of the heart by wires. This is in case this man has a heart problem. If he does, his heart will be able to draw the necessary energy from my heart. It's morning and I'm walking down the hallways of the hospital waiting for my surgery. I pass my spouse (my current spouse in reality). He tells me that he has just been operated on.

Dream #2: Aggression

Dream: There is my husband and I, we are on vacation with other couples that I don't know concretely, including a couple with a little girl. We are in an establishment which is located near the water, there are trees to shade the terrace and a sandy beach just in front, there is not too much light. I learn that the little girl has just been deflowered by her godfather. Her godfather is my husband "actually he is not godfather", I am in all my states.

I go down to the beach through a sunny path with a magnificent view of Notre-Dame-de-la-Garde, of Marseille. Arriving at the beach I see the little girl. I don't understand because I thought I would find my husband there with this little girl since that's what I had been told just before.
Arrived at the beach, I see the small girl and an undressed woman who are stuck one to the other. I join the establishment, I put my feet in tap shoes, faded red, I am mistaken, they are not my shoes they are those of the owner of the establishment, I give them back to him by apologizing. She shows me the chain that she has around the neck and she makes me see the precious stone that is there, it looks like a small diamond. It is a very beautiful stone, it is very small and it shines a lot. The stone falls on the ground, the owner lies down on the ground, she is dressed in a dress, faded red, with straps and earrings of the same color as well as the shoes. She finds the stone, she shows it to me and it falls again, I see it and I give it back to her. Someone who knows about stones told her the name of this stone but I don't remember.

With my husband we go towards our room which is not situated very close to the establishment, we walk along a road or I see my father in his car, I ignore it "concretely my father abused me when I had 7 or 8 years". We continue to walk while descending in the scrubland, then we join the edge of water, we walk in water there are reeds, it is a little swampy. I say to my husband: "it is serious what you made, I find that dirty..." he answers me very calmly by saying to me: "But you knew I told you so!"And I wake up in a strange energy...

Share: Concretely I have experienced touching by my father, my paternal grandfather, two cousins, my mother's husband and two other men, all between the ages of 7 and 9. I am aware that if I have experienced this, it brings back memories... I think there is still anger in me, I have not yet cleaned up everything... I am tired of this story, how can I do a good cleaning?
And at what point will I know it's cleaned?
Kaya, I am coming to you so that you can help me understand what I am going through right now... and how I can make things change? I am not sharing with you a dream but a reality that I have been living for a good two weeks, since I did my recitation practice with Angel 43 who is my emotional Angel as well as Angel 44 who is my intellectual Angel. Today I am working with Angel 45. While I was meditating with Angel 43 and 44, I also attended Christiane's conference and workshop. The day of the conference I was not very well, I had a fever and it looked like a flu. The day of the workshop I had a full and heavy head, I didn't know if I was going to come because I wasn't very well and then as the workshop progressed I felt better. My head was lighter, I was happy, but it didn't last very long. Since then, the whole story of my childhood has come up, I am very angry at my father for having raped me when I was 7 years old, I have done a lot of work on this subject but it is as if I had never done anything, I am fed up, I feel like I am not moving forward! All the images, one after the other, start to scroll again. I see my father, my paternal grandfather and the 5 other men, it disgusts me and it stimulates a great anger in me. I am unhappy, I suffer internally, I have colitis, I have a lump in my throat and I am sad but I am also very angry, I am very angry at him because for me he has ruined my life.

Today I am married but I cannot realize myself as a woman, nor to become a mother "miscarriage, extra uterine pregnancy", my sexuality is a problem "no desire, no pleasure..." When the phone rings if it's my father's number on the display I don't answer!!! About 15 years ago, I already spoke with him about what he did and he admitted the facts so I don't know what to do anymore. Should I break up the family by revealing this secret?
Should I tell my father that I'm mad at him for all the bad things he did to me?
Do I have to forget about him? In short, I don't know, I don't know anymore... but what I do know is that I'm suffering and I have to find a solution. Thank you Kaya for your help...

Dream #3: "The car door

Dream: I am parked on the street and my boy is parked in the yard. He backs into my car through the right rear door. I hear "BANG" and then I say to myself that's it, he backed into my car. I am in the kitchen and I see this. My brother Simon gets a call from the police, saying that my brother Gilles stole a car door (left side front). Everything was planned, this door was ordered. What he didn't know was that it belonged to a foundation that a friend of my brother Simon who goes fishing with him takes care of. My brother Gilles realized this when he arrived at the police station and saw the photos. My brother Simon told him: " What did you do there? Didn't you think for two minutes that the car was special and that it belonged to a foundation?"... I wake up... What my brothers mean to me, Gilles is more out of the way, I don't hear from him often and Simon is always ready to help.