I gave birth alone

Dream #1 : I gave birth alone

Share: Here is a nightmare like I get regularly. Every time I wake up from these intense nightmares, I thank God that I have such a good life despite the negative forces that are inside me. I feel an infinite gratitude towards this program of mine: a happy and balanced concrete life versus an intense unconsciousness.

Dream: At first, it was as if I had received two dreams at the same time, simultaneously, because scene 3 is the continuation of scenes 1 and 2 without one preceding the other.

Scene 1 I just gave birth on my own in one and a half hours when I thought I would never have another child. I had to go to the laboratory to have my blood tested. Madeleine, my older sister, was working there in spite of herself: I could see from her face that she was not happy to be there. I make an appointment for my analyses with a secretary who has the wrong agenda. I tell her that it's not the right date. Then she offers me a deal on bags: I refuse because we already have too many things at home, but I tell her to consult my husband Luc (so that he doesn't get angry). As usual, maybe he will want it back... And he does.

Scene 2 I teach a Pilates class (I am actually in training for this method. I have done the fundamental level and I lead two classes a week in an association). ) There are many more people than expected. Some people are not concentrated and do anything. I grab one of them and put it back. I tell Emilie (in charge of the association in which I intervene concretely) that I can't do a quality work with so many people. On her side, although she takes part in the course, Emilie practices her Qi Gong.

Scene 3 I am in a building in a city. Outside, I see a factory explode. A cloud of black smoke forms and ashes begin to fall from it.

Share: What is interesting is that just a few days ago the Lubrizol factory exploded in Rouen. In appearance, I am not concerned because I do not live there, but in this dream, the Law of Resonance shows me the opposite. Even the collective news that is on the news and that does not concern my life directly resonates with my memories. This is something I experience very often.

Dream #2: Burned in Car

Dream: In a car, people burn and get out with glowing skin. I tell myself that they need water, but I don't know how to do it.

Before the cloud reaches the building where we are, we talk about it with Luc and think of taking shelter at home, but it is not possible, because everything ignites with the fall of the embers.

On the way, we pass by a cosmetic store where a beautician offers hair color samples. The machine that made these samples has not yet been broken by the disaster and the saleswoman takes advantage of it before it is no longer possible.

Then, like many people, we get into a lake in the city. I stand under a tree that has its feet in the water while Luc has our youngest child put his head in the water. After a long wait, no more ashes fall down. So we decide to go back home. The air of the city is all dusty. Our shoes are quickly covered.

I think of putting a pale pink scarf on my mouth to breathe less dust. It is Luc who takes care of our child. I wonder what our life expectancy will be after this catastrophe.

Sharing : I am aware that this dream highlights many distortions (destructive forces, dark and explosive thoughts, lack of investment in my place as a mother and a trivialization of the richness of being a mother, selfishness, superficiality...), important and deep elements to work on in order to continue to clean up my inner self and I thank you wholeheartedly for helping me to deepen these percentages of my unconscious. What also questions me is the dimension of my dreams since a few months. The theme of the collective could be present in my dreams before but now, it is regularly that there are many people, even incredible crowds with several thousands of people... What does this mean?