The hidden dualities (English version)

Dream #1: The hidden dualities

Dream: In the dream, I was a stranger, very chubby, reddish blonde, tanned skin, brown eyes. I think of Spanish or South American origin. I dreamed that I was going to live with a cousin, a stranger with black hair, olive skin, athletic, heart-shaped face, green eyes. She lives with her boyfriend, a creative stranger, great charmer, American, blond, blue eyes.

As an observer, I sense that I am hiding something. While applying nail polish to my feet, I try to hide a tattoo on my right thigh. One night I was in the bathroom doing something mysterious, like splitting into two different people and coming back together. And my cousin's boyfriend sees me. So to make him forget what he sees, I seduce him and there are two voices: one says "no, it's not right"and the other one doesn't listen. It's getting embarrassing for me to be there.

After a few days, I break down. I confess to my cousin and split into two people. One is chubby, brown hair. The other one is nice, brown eyes, pretty nose, tanned skin and very sorry for what happened. The other one has black hair, perfect figure, square jaw, white and pale skin, black eyes and sharp nose. She, the other manipulative, seductive part, said she had to go with me because the cousin needed some good advice for her business and I couldn't give it to her. She was also sorry about what happened with her boyfriend, but it was to make him forget that he had seen the separation, because it could not be revealed to him.

I say I'm sorry (I feel horrible) and ask for forgiveness. I look at the other me, knowing that I need to work on these dualities.